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July 12, 2023

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In a world where racial divisions persist and human dignity is often overlooked, Esther Park, a Korean American, has chosen to raise her voice and make a positive impact. Growing up as an immigrant child, she witnessed the struggles faced by her parents and the marginalized communities around her.

Esther’s journey led her to work with Liberty in North Korea, a non-profit organization that rescues refugees and advocates for their rights. She passionately believes in the inherent value of every human being, regardless of their background. Esther’s commitment to social justice extends beyond her work at Liberty in North Korea.

As a content creator, she has built a community of over 150,000 parents, using her platform to share knowledge and inspire others. Despite the challenges of balancing her various roles, Esther’s dedication to her daughter, her faith, and her mission remains unwavering. She aims to harness the power of social media to drive positive change, advocating for dignity, equality, and the betterment of society.

Through her journey and her inspiring message, Esther encourages everyone to embrace their influence and use it to uplift others, spreading love and serving those in need. Read through as Esther shares with us her experiences growing up as a Korean American, her work at Liberty in North Korea, her role in the church, and her journey as a social media influencer advocating for marginalized communities and give a voice to the voiceless. 

GROWING UP AS A KOREAN AMERICAN

Growing up in Seattle, Washington, a predominately majority culture city, I was the “popular Asian kid.” My friends would say things like “Oh but you’re the cool Asian.” There were some ways I clung to that. But it also unsettled me. A lot. It bothered me that certain people were determined as “in” and accepted or not by the color of their skin. But I never spoke up. Since then, I’ve witnessed many horrors of racism. And I truly believe in the need for racial reconciliation. Especially now, living as an Asian American through Covid-19, I’ve realized that I need to raise my voice.

MANY ASK IF I GOT INVOLVED BECAUSE I’M KOREAN, BUT MY ANSWER HAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE: “NO, I’M INVOLVED BECAUSE I’M HUMAN”. 

Growing up our family didn’t have much but I know that my mom always worked hard and tirelessly to make sure we had the best childhood growing up. We were fortunate enough that our hard working immigrant parents could make just enough, but I knew early on that it wasn’t the case for everyone. I went to school with friends who simply couldn’t get good grades or make it to all of their classes because they were busy working part time jobs while going to school to support their families from an early age. It was so heartbreaking for me. The experience as an immigrant child is unique yet unsettling. We see our parents working harder than most yet they struggle to even reach the middle class because of language barriers and learning to assimilate to a new culture. I always knew growing up that I’d want to make sure that I could do everything in my power to help minorities and to help those that didn’t have a voice.  

I’ve also spent almost my whole life in the church during ministry and mostly my focus has been on local outreach and missions. I currently oversee our City Partnerships ministry which is where me and my team are able to give our church members an opportunity to serve the city of Los Angeles that may be living under the poverty line. A few of the organizations that we work with is LA Mission, which is a non profit that works with the houseless population in Los Angeles to empower them to get back up on their feet and also with a non profit called Lincoln Heights Tutorial program that is a non profit with a mission to serve underserved and overlooked youth of East Los Angeles. They focus on making a local and significant community impact. They do this through a combination of tutoring services to close the academic gap, and youth programs to prepare teens for life after high school.

THE ROLE MY FAMILY PLAY IN SHAPING MY VALUES, PASSIONS, AND WORK

My mom immigrated to the States when she was in High School, as the eldest she was busy helping my grandparents with language barriers and her and my aunts and uncles all helped with their gas station. My dad came sometime after College, he started off as a dishwasher at a Sushi restaurant and eventually made his way up and now is a Sushi Chef and restaurant owner that is well known for some of his rolls in menus at different Sushi restaurants. He is also known for making Sushi for some of the top Major League Baseball players and South Korea baseball teams. My family came with absolutely nothing besides the thought of raising their families to achieve the “American dream”. I’m sure their eyes were opened to the brokenness of this country, but they worked hard to give their children everything. 

In many ways, my family and a lot of immigrant families were looked down on, this from an early age made me realize that I would never look down on someone for being different. I believe that we are all thread together as humanity and that we all must work together in helping this world become a better and brighter place.

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WORK AT LIBERTY IN NORTH KOREA

I’ve spent most of my late 20s working with Liberty in North Korea – a non-profit that rescues North Korean refugees hiding in China. Many ask if I got involved because I’m Korean, but my answer has and always will be: “No, I’m involved because I’m human”. What first sparked my interest in this issue was because I saw other human beings being treated less than just based on the circumstance or situation they were placed in. I hope that helping people dwelling in the margins, living every day in fear and helplessness, will never come with a condition. That we’ll continue to feel the tug to love and serve those in need. After all, we’re all human. 

Liberty in North Korea is a non-profit organization that believes that one day every North Korean man, woman and child will be free. We believe that every human being believes to have their basic human rights and dignities. We’re helping North Koreans escape a brutal regime through a 3,000-mile secret rescue route to freedom. It’s illegal for North Koreans to leave their country yet thousands of North Koreans risk their lives to reach freedom. Once they get into China, they are still not free. Because of the relationship that China has with North Korea, if North Koreans are caught by Chinese authorities they can be sent back to North Korea where they can face harsh punishments and imprisonment. 70% of women that are hiding in China are trafficked or sold as sex brides because of their difficult situations. This is where we come in to help them reach freedom through our rescue routes.

Once they have been rescued and resettled in South Korea and America, we also work with them in their resettlement journey to help them build self efficacy and reach success in their new lives. We also have a program called “Changing the Narrative”, unfortunately most of the world knows and sees North Korea based on what we see on the news which is about the Kim Regime or their nuclear missiles but we want to shift the focus to the 25 million innocent and real lives of the North Korean people, people who are just like you and I. 

I got involved with Liberty in North Korea when I went to UCLA, I helped start the chapter there and started having fundraisers very regularly and got involved with our headquarters that way. The summer of my senior year of college I went on a Christian mission trip to the border of China and North Korea that was life changing. I was able to hear from and befriend many North Koreans that were hiding in China and hear their stories. We would have to go to their homes at 3AM and turn off the lights and whisper to hear their stories. Right after that I interned with Liberty in North Korea where I traveled around the East Coast for 3 months sharing the stories of the North Korean people for hundreds of people. During that internship the HR manager called me and asked if I wanted to apply for a position and working at Liberty in North Korea was my first full time job after graduating at UCLA. 

BUILDING A COMMUNITY OF OVER 150K PARENTS AND PARENTS-TO-BE

During my maternity leave when I was able to step away from my day jobs to recover and to take care of my newborn, I was able to find a way to do something fun and meaningful. I spent a lot of time when my newborn was napping to learn about parenting and different methods and ways to ensure that my daughter was getting the best rest and care possible. I started posting my journey on Instagram and was able to build a following on Instagram and Tiktok of over 150,000 parents and parents-to-be in a matter of 3 months. It was an innovative way of creating value based on my circumstance. I’ve always believed that people come first, so this new venture I’ve entered into has always been about my community. I love being able to engage with them and share what I’ve experienced and learned so that they can learn from my mistakes and so that I can learn from them as well. 

BALANCING WORK AT LIBERTY IN NORTH KOREA,CHURCH, AND SOCIAL MEDIA

To be honest, it’s been hard. But I try to focus on my work at Liberty in North Korea from 9-5 and focus on Church ministry and content creation during the evenings or on weekends when Shiloh is asleep. But when Shiloh is awake I try to interact with her and spend as much time with her as possible. It’s important to me that she sees a mom that isn’t always working and on her screen but that is interacting with her and always putting her first. To be honest, a lot of this is of course because I am passionate about the work that I do but it’s also a means to a way to provide a life to Shiloh where she can flourish and grow in some ways that I may not have been able to. She is my ultimate motivation. 

CHALLENGES FACED IN VARIOUS ROLES, AND HOW I’VE WORKED TO OVERCOME THEM

I think the work I’ve done at non-profits isn’t very “cool” or “flashy”, it’s hard to get people to care about these issues, so that has always been very difficult. I love that there has been a huge movement of young individuals that have risen up to use their voices. For example, there was so much attention around the Black Lives Matters movement and the Stop AAPI Hate movement, which is so encouraging to me. It made me so happy to know that this type of awareness could be made. But it’s been heartbreaking to see that so few people in the world know about what’s going on in North Korea. The UN has deemed that North Korea has one of the greatest human rights crises in the world, yet I feel that there is little to almost no focus in the media on North Korea.

I know that it’s a complicated issue but they need our help. I oversee the grassroots movements of students and supporters at Liberty in North Korea and although it’s been discouraging at times, I am so grateful for the consistent supporters that we have all over the world. We have over 100 student and community led LiNK Teams all over the world that I have the privilege to lead and oversee. They are the ones that are showing up and helping to change the narrative to focus on the North Korean people. 

HARNESSING SOCIAL MEDIA TO DRIVE POSITIVE CHANGE TO ADVOCATE FOR DIGNITY AND EQUALITY

I think what I’m passionate about is two fold:

  1. When people are not treated with dignity and care, I believe that all human beings deserve this. 
  1. When people are suffering because of the lack of resources that they have, when there is an abundance in the world that ought to be shared.

So when it comes to these two areas, I want to be able to use my platform to share about what’s going on in the world and how we can help. For example, sharing different go fund me’s and fundraisers, sharing opportunities to help a specific person or community in need, starting my own fundraiser, sharing ways to contact your congressman or senator to push for change, etc. I have been able to raise over $40,000 holding fundraisers for Liberty in North Korea and other charities that I’ve mostly been able to leverage through my social media channels. 

ADVICE TO MOM CONTENT CREATORS  LOOKING TO MAKE A POSITIVE IMPACT THROUGH SOCIAL MEDIA 

I really don’t like the word “influencer”, but what I do want to share is that we indeed are all influencers whether small or big your following. There will always be someone that is influenced by you. You may be influencing your child everyday because they look up to you and learn from you just by watching you. You may have watched a good Netflix show that you’ve told all of your friends about. You may have taught your mom and dad how to use the latest app on their smartphones. We are all influencing others in some way or another, but whether we are influencing people to do good or to do bad, is the choice that we get to make everyday. My faith is very important to me and something that I have always lived by is to love God and to love others.

I know that God has placed me on this earth to love others and to always put others before myself. But whether you believe in God or not, I’d want to encourage other moms that want to make a positive impact in the world to always think of the other and to always look at everything you do (including social media and content creation) with the lens of “how can I love or serve the other today”. I know that everyone is fighting their own battles and struggling so I try to find ways to make people smile through my content and if that’s the way that God is using me as a channel of His love and blessing, then I’m grateful for that opportunity. 

CONNECT WITH ESTHER

Instagram: @estheryunpark  

Tiktok: @esthersoyunpark 

Youtube: Esther Soyun Park

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Caroline Mangune Alanis was only 4 years old when she lost all her hair, “I don’t even know what it is like to have hair.” she said. Caroline has Alopecia Universalis (AU)  — the rarest form of Alopecia Areata, it’s an autoimmune condition that attacks the hair follicles.

Growing up Bald

Born in the Philippines to a strict father and a sweet and kind soul mother, as she describes, “My dad didn’t allow me to go out with friends a lot. I was never allowed to go on sleepovers.  He sheltered me from people. I never realized that until I was an adult, and reflected on my childhood.” She also has two brothers who were protective as well.

At the tender age of 4, she was already practicing “DAILY AFFIRMATIONS” although she never knew how impactful they were,  “I was always told to look in the front of the mirror.  I would say, I am beautiful, I am strong, I am special. I have beautiful eyes, beautiful skin, etc.”  Her parents never told her the pain and heartbreak of raising her, rather they just always told her how special and beautiful she was, “They always told me I was meant to stand out.”

She had no recollection of the time her hair started falling out, but she was told that her hair fell off within a 2-week time frame, “My mom said it could have been brought by stress from an earthquake we had in the Philippines.”  

Caroline was never allowed to say negative words about herself, or else her father would scold her. She was imparted that words she says about herself will either bring her up or tear her down, “So maybe I thought negative things about myself, but I never said it. Growing up bald, I never felt ugly, just incomplete.”

Growing up bald, I never felt ugly, just incomplete.

– Caroline Mangune Alanis

Although her parents taught her how to be courageous and had always made her feel how beautiful and blessed she was, growing up bald was not easy — she had to endure the everyday pressure of life. “There was the pressure of seeing little girls with beautiful hair and wishing every day that I had that. There was the pressure of kids being mean and pulling off my bandana and laughing at me because I was bald.” She faced the pressure of name-calling and bullying.

Caroline’s parents finally convinced her to start wearing a wig which, unfortunately, didn’t make things easier as she recalls. Walking home from school one day with her brother, a girl decided it would be fun to pull Caroline’s wig off and throw it on the ground. “At that moment, all I could do was cry and run home,” she adds, “every day I feared leaving the house, the emotional scar is unimaginable.”

She learned how to hide her AU, she felt as if people wouldn’t accept her for being her so it became a secret, and only her family and those she truly trusted, which were not many, knew the real Caroline.

In high school, only a handful knew about her AU, “which made it so easy to try to blend in since I never wanted to stand out, never!” The ironic part about it, as Caroline describes, was she would always be the one to be called by her teachers to lead a project, sing solos, and participate in plays and fashion shows. They even nominated her to join the homecoming queen and enter a beauty pageant. However, “I realized that my fear never really went away by keeping my AU a secret and the emotional scar was also still a part of my life.”

Every day I feared leaving the house, the emotional scar is unimaginable.

-Caroline Mangune Alanis

Being Bold With The Love Of Her Life

She met her husband Mark from work, where they were both managing stores at a mall in Chicago. They became best friends and were each other’s plus one at weddings, “We didn’t start dating until I transferred to another mall.” she said.    

But the day has to come when she must tell Mark about her condition, “Telling Mark about my alopecia was very difficult. He once told me that he loved hair and eyes on a woman,” she adds, “He himself has gorgeous hair.” Caroline felt she didn’t have one of the criteria Mark was looking for. Although she mentioned several times that she had something to tell him and he would always say “whenever you are ready.” Caroline thought that they both knew that Mark is aware of her wearing a wig, they just never talked about it. 

Mark and Caroline had been dating for about a year when she finally tried to tell him one evening. She got choked up and started crying. He told her, “Caroline, don’t you think I know you by now from your head down to your toes?” He had tears in his eyes. She then asked Mark why he didn’t tell her.  He replied, “I wanted you to trust me enough to tell me”.  

As they began to start their family, Caroline’s AU became their secret. She held her family bound to her alopecia. When her daughters’ were infants, she wouldn’t carry them in public for fear that they would pull her wig. “They were taught never to touch mommy’s hair, ever!” 

Her daughter could never have friends sleep over because it would be very uncomfortable for Caroline to be her in her own home. “My daughters were always fearful when we were out in public, especially on windy days.” 

Caroline’s baldness was a big secret, even her husband’s family didn’t know, “because I hid so much all my life, I didn’t realize I walked in fear every day.  I didn’t realize I lived in bondage.”

Mark told her, “Caroline, don’t you think I know you by now from your head down to your toes?” He had tears in his eyes. She then asked Mark why he didn’t tell her.  He replied, “I wanted you to trust me enough to tell me”.  

Embracing Being Beautiful

In the summer of 2015, her life opened a new door, she became a part of an International Alopecia Group on Facebook and realized that her journey with AU has prepared her to help others like her. She saw so many men and women devastated by losing their hair. They were going through a lot of emotional pain, “You see, alopecia can happen at any time in one’s life so the adults experience a loss and have to grieve.” Caroline said. Alopecia might not be life-threatening but it is life-altering. Hair, eyebrows, and lashes truly make a difference in one’s appearance, “I myself put my face on every day.” she added. 

She also saw some men and women walking proudly bald. One man, in particular, Anthony Carrigan, an actor who also kept his alopecia a secret but he came out and had been helping others and is a beacon of light.  

Then, Caroline started giving advice about doing daily affirmations, “doing lots of SELF LOVE!”  as well as giving makeup tips, the alopecia community knows her as the “Eyelash Queen”.

But once the parents of alopecia children started posting their heartbreaks, “that’s when I realized my parents’ challenges of raising me, a bald child.” Caroline started reiterating what her parents taught her. She gave advice to parents, about how special their child was, how they were perfect and beautiful just as they were. “Alopecia children are so strong,” she noted.

“I then realized I was all those things: perfect, beautiful, and strong,” she said, but her baldness was still a secret. Caroline thought to herself, how does she encourage others to accept themselves if she herself could not let people know about her condition? So as those thoughts lingered in her head, she began telling her family and friends — she only wanted to tell people, not show people. Her goal was to have 30 different wigs for each day of the month.

“But God! God had other plans for me,” the unexplainable started occurring, her wigs became unbearably uncomfortable to wear, “it almost felt like my scalp was burning,” which she thought was completely strange since she has been wearing them for 40 years. It took a lot to take a look at herself bald.  She then began to think, “How can I tell my daughters  and others that beauty really lies deep within if I myself can’t see past my lack of hair?”

On August 14, 2015, on her way home with her husband from dinner, Caroline’s wig was getting itchy so she took it off to scratch her head. She was about to put her wig back on but Mark held her hand to stop her. He said “Honey, don’t put it on, you’re fine. You are safe with me, nothing can hurt you, and no one will hurt you. You are beautiful.” She reluctantly did what he asked and wanted to be strong for him. 

Mark kept holding her hand tight and kept asking if she was okay,  “I just kept saying it is scary.”  As they were nearing their home, her husband pulled over and said “Come on let’s take a selfie.” to lighten the situation. Her husband dropped Caroline off in front of their home, with her wig in her purse. Mark told her to go ahead and go into their home.  

“For the first time in 40  years, I felt God’s love on my head. The soft wind touched my head, a few raindrops falling on my head. I cried and laughed as I ran to my house.” she recalls.  

After that night, her husband helped Caroline with her small steps into seeing herself for who she was — a beautiful woman living with AU. Slowly, she found herself no longer wearing her wigs. They would go on drives and take walks on the beach. “I felt free, my secret slowly fading; including the emotional scar.”

I felt free, my secret slowly fading; including the emotional scar.

-Caroline Mangune Alanis

“On Sept 9, 2015, I posted it on Facebook, I cried the whole night.  Everyone was so kind.  I was still afraid, but I started walking bald.” she expressed.

In the fall of that year, it started getting cold and she didn’t like her hats since they looked terrible without any hair. She was pretty sad because she really did not want to start wearing her wigs again, “I just prayed and asked God to lead me in what I am supposed to do. I got my answer on Sunday, October 4th,” A lady stopped her and asked if she has Alopecia, to which she responded “Yes!”. The woman said, so did she, and asked Caroline, how does she do it? — She knew the lady meant how she could walk around without her wig.

Caroline answered “I don’t know. This is all new to me. “God is giving me the strength to do this. I couldn’t have done this on my own.” So that day, she officially retired all her wigs. “Yes, I put them all away for those special occasions,” she added.

She has met so many people just like her all over the world which inspired her to start her own Alopecia Group in Chicago, where they meet once a month. “I love having a family I call my own, people who truly understand me.”

The Chicago Alopecians

Caroline together with her friends started the Facebook group, with her as the main facilitator. It is a place where they can share their personal journeys and ask for advice or help. The Chicago Alopecians’ mission is to ensure that no one feels alone. Recently, they have been planning to create more events to cater to everyone, children, teens, and men. 

“We each have our own alopecia journey and we just want to connect with each other,” said Caroline. They also allow wig vendors in the group, “Chicagoland is such a big place. I love having a solution for everyone in the group.” As of writing, they currently have 332 members, and they’ve also started an Instagram page to widen their reach.

For the international group, Caroline is also encouraging others to create their own alopecia groups — their own tribe in their local towns.

“I have always known God wanted me to stand out, but I was always afraid.  These days, I am no longer afraid to not have my wig on, I embrace it.”

Caroline is truly a woman who is defying what society calls “beautiful”.